Tuesday, October 6, 2009

respectable sins: pride


this is another chapter in jerry bridges book, respectable sins. he does a pretty good job of talking about a few aspects of pride, but he for sure cannot cover them all. in fact, if he did, it would be a book. i tend to define pride, not just as arrogance or thinking highly of yourself, but as any time you do not acknowledge god. so really all of these sins that bridges addresses, stem from pride or as he calls it, ungodliness. but here is a recap of the chapter.

bridges addresses pride in 4 areas. all of which i can see active in my life.

moral self-righteousness
this form of pride "expresses itself in a feeling of moral superiority with respect to other people."

"because we don't commit those sins, we tend to feel morally superior and look with a certain amount of disdain or contempt on those who do."
"But though it is so prevelant amoung us, it is difficult to recognize because we all practice it to some degree. in fact, we seem to get a perverse enjoyment out of discussing how awful society around us is becoming. when we engage in this kind of thinking or conversation, we are guilty os the pride of moral superiority."
some where inside of us we think we are stronger than those sinners. if they only were like us, and could get it together. but we forget that where we are has NOTHING to do with us. but for the grace of god!! i am always 2 seconds away from committing the most heinous sins without god. a good assessment of this is to look at paul. can we like paul say and believe that we are the worst of sinners? if not, we think we are morally superior and we have forgotten the cross and grace. until we understand the depth of our sin and what christ did for us, we will ALWAYS think we are better than someone else.

pride of correct doctrine
this is "the assumption that whatever my doctrinal beliefs are , they are correct, and anyone who holds another belief is theologically inferior."

we must be careful that our knowledge does not puff up, but rather we use our doctrine and theology to sustain us in our calling. to equip us in our kingdom work. if we are just storing up our knowledge, we will do damage to the body rather than strengthen it. [good sermon on that here]. those with this attitude often teach and speak with selfish motives and actually rarely care about others, we just want them to think we are right.

pride of achievement
these quotes pretty much sum it up:
"paul wrote, 'who sees anything different in you? what do you have that you did not receive? if you then received it, why do you boast s if you did not receive it?' (1 corinthians 4:7). so what do you have that you did not receive? nothing. you have nothing that did not come to you as a gift from god. our intellect, our natural skills and talents, our health, and our opporunties to succeed all come from god. we have nothing that will enable us to achieve success that we did not receive from god."
"another aspect of pride is the inordinate desire for recognition. all of us appreciate commendation for a job well done or for many years of faithful service on the job or at church. but what is our attitude when we do a specific job well and don't receive recognition? are we willing to labor in obscurity, doing our jobs as unto the lord, or do we become disgruntled over the lack of recognition."
"luke 17:10, 'so you also, when you have done all that you were commanded, say, 'we are unworthy servants; we have only done what was our duty.' when we have done a job well or served faithfully over a long time, our attitude should be, 'i have only done my duty.'"
an independent spirit
bridges is talking about those who show a resistance to authority, especially spiritual authority, and an unteachable attitude.

how do we respond to authority? are we eager to soak up wisdom from others are always thinking about how much we have to offer. or even worse, how they are disqualified from teaching us anything because of such and such... (yikes, i do this.)

so there is a recap of this chapter. i only wish he gave some practicals to battling these sins. like i have mentioned before, piper's book battling unbelief is a great resource for this and so is beth moore's book, praying god's word.

Monday, October 5, 2009

respectable sins: unthankfulness


ever blown through a day, an afternoon, an hour, or moment without thanking god? me too, all the time. we are so arrogant aren't we? forgetting to acknowledge that god is all.

"how often do we give thanks for our salvation? have you stopped today to give thanks to god for delivering you from the domain of darkness and transferring you to the kingdom of his son? and if you have given thanks, was it in a mere nominal way, much like some people give thanks at a meal, or was it an expression of heartfelt gratitude for what god has done for you in christ?"
this is a flag that something is going on deeper. we think we are in control, we forget the gospel and what christ has done for us, we don't see our need for god, we are too busy to take time to thank him (therefore we are too arrogant to thank him), etc.

"most people acknowledge that everything we have comes from god, but how often do we stop to give thanks to him?"

bridges uses deuteronomy 8:11-18 to remind us that if we do not take time to thank and acknowledge god. when we forget to acknowledge god, we slowly begin to forget where our provision comes from and we start doubting or questioning whether or not god will indeed provide. this has been a major problem in my life. i struggle with anxiety because i do not take time to remember each little thing the Lord has provided for me.

okay, but can we give thanks in all circumstances? yes. bridges quotes paul in 1 thessalonians 5:8, saying "give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of god in christ jesus for you." he also quotes romans 8:28-39.
"In other words, paul is telling us that god intends all of our circumstances, both good and bad (but in the context paul has in mind, especially the bad ones), to be instruments of sanctification, of growing us more and more into the likeness of jesus."
do i believe that god is in control? do i trust his word? do i want his glory and fame more than what i want? if the answer to questions like these is yes, then even though we may be grieving, our spirit will be submitting in thankfulness, glad to be a part of his plan and to be rescued by the cross. even if we never understand why, we can know that he is greater and his sovereignty rules.

help my unbelief. when i cannot be thankful, i do not see or believe. help my unbelief. it is truly amazing how our perspective changes when we take time to thank him. we actually begin to see how he has been working all along.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

his steadfast love endures forever...

the lord's steadfast love is mentioned over and over again in the psalms. it surely was something the psalmists clung to. something they had to remind themselves of over and over again as they endured trials, hardships and temptations. today i read through psalm 136. i noticed that every other phrase, says "for his steadfast love endures forever." i figured there must be something to this repetitive phrase, so i decided to read it out loud.

as i heard it over and over again, i choked up. i could not finish the psalm. the idea that his love is steadfast and does not change is incredible, especially since my love changes every day. then top that off with the idea that it endures forever!! forever! i do not have to worry if it will be enough for today, it will last forever!

as i read through this psalm, i was reminded of just a few ways the lord was faithful in the old testament, which lead me to think about the ways he has been faithful to me, which lead me to tears. it would be really cool if i could write a psalm like this, for all the events in my life also shout, "for his steadfast love endures forever."

there is something about speaking god's word out loud! it is powerful. i would encourage you to try it. here is psalm 136. all of it.
1Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good,
for his steadfast love endures forever.
2 Give thanks to the God of gods,
for his steadfast love endures forever.
3 Give thanks to the Lord of lords,
for his steadfast love endures forever;

4 to him who alone does great wonders,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
5 to him who by understanding made the heavens,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
6 to him who spread out the earth above the waters,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
7 to him who made the great lights,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
8 the sun to rule over the day,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
9 the moon and stars to rule over the night,
for his steadfast love endures forever;

10 to him who struck down the firstborn of Egypt,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
11 and brought Israel out from among them,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
12 with a strong hand and an outstretched arm,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
13 to him who divided the Red Sea in two,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
14 and made Israel pass through the midst of it,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
15 but overthrew Pharaoh and his host in the Red Sea,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
16 to him who led his people through the wilderness,
for his steadfast love endures forever;

17 to him who struck down great kings,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
18 and killed mighty kings,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
19 Sihon, king of the Amorites,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
20 and Og, king of Bashan,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
21 and gave their land as a heritage,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
22 a heritage to Israel his servant,
for his steadfast love endures forever.

23 It is he who remembered us in our low estate,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
24 and rescued us from our foes,
for his steadfast love endures forever;
25 he who gives food to all flesh,
for his steadfast love endures forever.

26 Give thanks to the God of heaven,
for his steadfast love endures forever.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

flip happy crepes...

this post is long overdue, but i recently came across the pictures and decided to write a post.
one of the places in austin that i have heard about over and over again is flip happy crepes. a trailer in central austin that is known for its delicious crepes. so a month or so ago, some good friends of mine and i decided to hit it up for lunch.

obviously all they serve are crepes. i got one for my meal (the name of it escapes me) and a nutella and banana one for my dessert. it is so good! and lives up to all that the food network has said about it. i highly recommend it. good food and a great austin atmosphere.

food never looks as good in pictures, at least not my pictures.

me and my good friend olivia.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

psalm 127:1-2

1Unless the LORD builds the house,
those who build it labor in vain.
Unless the LORD watches over the city,
the watchman stays awake in vain.
2It is in vain that you rise up early
and go late to rest,
eating the bread of anxious toil;
for he gives to his beloved sleep.
- psalm 127:1-2

the lord really used this scripture last week to convict me. for most of my life i have run at a very fast pace (hence the blog title), it comes natural to me and i think it is how i am wired. the lord has been teaching me the difference between just going going going, and walking in his spirit as i am going going going.

i have noticed that i sometimes do a lot of things or am involved in a lot of things that perhaps i am not supposed to be. i do it for a couple of reasons:
  • i just want to (my selfishness and desire for comfort)
  • it would look good for me to do it (my pride and my name)
  • i think that if i do not do it that it will not get done (not believing god's sovereignty and power)
well these verses shoot those reasons down. i am guilty of building in vain or staying awake in vain. i am often rising early, staying up late, full of anxiety or just working until i'm exhausted. oh, how i forget that the lord is powerful, in complete control and if he wanted, he could take care of my to do list while i sleep. sleep, just like sabbath, is a gift to help me to live by faith, requiring me not to work all the time, as i trust him for my future well-being.

i know there are times when i will be rising early and staying up late and that is part of life in the kingdom, but here i am refering to when i run hard in my own strength or in anxiety or for my own name. vanity! pointless! trust the lord and rest!

my first ut game...

this past saturday, i got to attend my first ut game and it was awesome! as many of you know i LOVE football and i love watching it live (i recently found out i get to go to a dallas cowboys game this year too!!). so 2 of my good friends here bought me a ticket to the game. it was super hot! (like sweat through your clothes hot) the horns dominated utep 64-7. our seats were really close. and yes, i even said hook'em and texas fight.

don't worry friends, i still love the sooners. and in 2 weekends, my heart will bleed crimson, but every other weekend this fall, i will also be cheering for texas. it is just too fun to pass up.

catie and i (one of the girls that bought my ticket)

our view. we were so close.

Monday, September 28, 2009

elect exiles...

so i have been spending a lot of time in 1 peter. it is a great book that talks a lot about suffering. i decided to study it with some girls because i realized that i do not suffer much and when i do suffer i do not suffer well.

tonight we talked about 1 peter 1:1-2. there is a lot crammed into this introduction, but what stuck out to me tonight was the phrase "elect exiles." when reading this before, i just breezed over this without thinking much about it but tonight it hit me.

i am elect. i am loved. god chose me before the beginning of time. i am not perfect, i do not have it together and never will this side of heaven, but i am fully loved and accepted. i am chosen to be a part of a heavenly kingdom. i may be rejected by everyone else, but i am chosen and embraced by god. he loved me so much that while i was still a sinner, heck, before i was even conceived, he died for me! (rom 5:8)

i am an exile. this world is not my home. i forget that all the time and i live as though it is. i do not and should not belong here. if i try to make it my home, it will always disappoint. as an exile things will not be comfortable, and i should not expect them to be. as an exile, i will not be loved and embraced by everyone. as an exile, my life will often be contrary to this culture because the kingdom i belong to has a different set of values. yet i forget, a lot! and i try to make the things of this world work for, i get frustrated at my circumstances, i fear rejection by people. but why would i expect anything different. i am living in exile.

so if you hear me complaining, moping about, looking depressed, fearing people, etc please remind me that i am an elect exile. i am fully loved and embraced by god so stop looking for that from someone else and this world is not my home, so stop expecting it to feel like it.

i am excited to learn more from this book! if you are looking for more info about 1 peter, mark driscoll has a great sermon series on it. check it out here. http://www.8witnesses.com/