for nothing is impossible...

This week, at our family therapy session, - which was hell by the way - I started thinking: "I can't do this. I am done.  The hurt and pain and needs of these boys goes way deeper than I can help with.  I knew things were going to be bad, but I did not picture it like this. What am I doing? I can't help them. This is impossible. We are not making any progress.  This was a poor decision."

After therapy, I took the boys to Wendy's to get some food and get out of the house because I thought I was going to lose it.  After eating, I decided we were just going to drive for awhile because I didn't know what else to do.  As I was driving, the Holy Spirit did a great deal of comforting and the boys were surprisingly quiet in the back seat.  God reminded me that he is with me and when he is with me, ALL THINGS are possible.  He works outside the realm of natural possibility - after all he is supernatural. He parts the red sea and makes people walk on dry land. He makes bread fall from the sky and water come from a rock.  He makes walls crumble after 7 laps and some trumpets sounding. He raises up an army from dry bones.  He stops the sun.  He calms the storm. He heals the sick. He raises the dead. He kills giants with stones and a sling. He feeds 5000 with a few loaves and fish. He has never broken a promise.  He died and rose again, showing that He has power over the worst in and around us. And he has told me that with Him and because of Him nothing will be impossible.

For nothing will be impossible with God. - Luke 1:37

    He said to them, “Because of your little faith. For truly, I say to you, if you have faith like a grain of mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you." - Matthew 17:20

Nothing is impossible with God.  He has so clearly brought me here, brought the boys here. I am just like the Israelites complaining to Moses that they want to go back to Egypt because they could not see or understand what God was doing.  I have forgotten that God is with me, leading me, and providing for me just when I need it.  Each day I need the reminder that nothing, NO single solitary thing, is impossible for God. He is working now in ways that I can't and may never see.  He is able. I am not gonna make it because I am strong or gifted with kids or because this is gonna get easier some day - but because He is with me and has got a hold of me! I need not be afraid of the impossible because the Creator of all things is with me. In the midst of fear, frustration, and exhaustion, I can and have to trust that my God is greater than all I know. I will probably need you to remind me though. :)

The song called God is Able by Hillsong has been on repeat as a much needed reminder this week...

God is Able  
He will never fail  
He is almighty God
Greater than all we seek  
Greater than all we ask  
He has done great things
 
Lifted up, He defeated the grave  
Raised to life, our God is able  
In His name, we overcome  
For the Lord, our God is able   
God is with us 

God is on our side  
He will make a way
Far above all we know  
Far above all we hope  
He has done great things
 
Lifted up, He defeated the grave 
Raised to life, our God is able  
In His name, we overcome  
For the Lord, our God is able
God is with us  

He will go before  
He will never leave us  
He will never leave us
God is for us  
He has open arms  
He will never fail us  
He will never fail us
 
Lifted up, He defeated the grave  
Raised to life, our God is able  
In His name, we overcome  
For the Lord, our God is able
 
Lifted up, He defeated the grave  
Raised to life, our God is able  
In His name, we overcome  
For the Lord, our God is able
 
For the Lord, our God is able 
For the Lord, our God is able